Maturity… I’ve been called too mature, I’ve been called immature. I’ve heard mature lately more times than i care to mention. I’ve never really fit in with my peers. not to be egotistical but for the most part they are too immature for my taste. so I’ve surrounded myself with people older than myself, more mature than my peers. one of the mistakes i made was assuming that everyone older than myself is more mature. but I’ll come back to that. So i have a group of friends that is older than me, more mature than me. amongst that group there are a few of my age, most immature, some perhaps slightly more so than others. all of them my friends, but as of late i have been putting more stock in “maturity”. as if maturity is a measurable quantity within each person. as if maturity has any bearing on how good a person is, or how fit they are to be my friend. never the less i put alot of stock in it. and it has paid off, my selfish elitist point of view that i can be better than someone because i have more life experience and thus more maturity has served me well. Every now and then i would think it stupid and drop it, or try to, for a short time. when i do all i do is end up lowering myself down to such a level of immaturity and childish deeds that i disgust myself. these times only affirm my point of view. so i stick with it, keep myself surrounded with people more mature than me, people that have something to teach me, because i am a selfish son of a bitch. I don’t want to keep people around me that i view as less than me, less mature, and therefore useless. i am an asshole, but when i don’t sway from my aforementioned stance on who to be around i am a happy asshole. these past couple of days i have felt like less of an asshole because i found someone who shares my point of view, whether they want to admit it to themselves or not. this comforts me. i will not name names, that is something that (what my elitist mind believes) a lesser mortal would do. I’m not quite sure why I’m posting this, maybe its my current state of pseudo-insanity, but i am. I’m going to close this off by posting a definition i looked up a a short time ago. I’ve been mulling this over since i read it and applying it to all of those i know.

Immaturity: lacking in development; “immature plans”; “an unformed character” [syn: unformed] 2: (used of living things especially persons) in an early period of life or development or growth; “young people”

Hope it serves you as well as it did me.

August 21st, 2005
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